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Bobbie: Hello, I am 39 and 18wks along with no bf in sight mine also left but he did tell me he didn't want anymore he had one from someone else and wasn't ready for anymore and I was always told I couldn't have any and really never planned on having a baby. But once it happened I was happy I had been kind of thinking about what I would do and how it would change my life. In the process though or the same week I found out I lost a good job, and alomost became homeless, but a good friend and her husban
Jomoe: I'm 24 too. My first baby. Two months. Just found out my fiance is an addict. Now I'm a single mom. I'm happy to have a baby but sad I'll be delivering alone. I feel so stupid. I feel embarrassed.
used: Hi I'm 7 months pregnant, completely broke and my bf left me for another woman, they made me feel horrible, with lies, threats, and verbal abuse. I can't take it anymore, I even think about ending everything to stop all this suffering
sophia: Im 12 Weeks Pregnant And I Only See My Bf Once A Week I Feels So Lonely At Times. Im 20yrs. Old And Scared With No One 2 Talk With Sometimes What Should I Do. My Bf Doesnt Want 2 Talk About The Baby. He Ismad His Life Is Changing I Feel Like I Could Better By Myself.
Mey: Just stopping by. Hope you are ok
Jenn: Congrats on starting school, my friend! I am sooooo proud of you! Never give up on your dreams, you CAN and you WILL succeed! From this former single mom, current new mom....Happy Mother's Day!
Stephanie: Hi from one blogging mommy to another. :)
Shannon: Just stopping by to say Hello! I hope you are doing well and your little one is quite adorable!
Friendship : Do you enjoy playing games, doing polls and meeting new friends? Drop by and visit sometime!
Amanda: I am very scared of having a little boy all on my own. I am 24 and have almost finished my masters. It is still a scary thing and I hope that I can handle it as well as you have! Your baby boy is wonderful!
Ashley: Just out blog hopping. you have a beautiful little boy! Its exciting to see how quickly they do new things everday. Stop by my journal anytime.
Anne: have a great weekend
Anne: have a great weekend
Nathalie: T.G.I.F Stopping by to wish you an awesome weekend!
Anne: Just came by to say hi
Jenn: Congratulations on your beautiful and healthy baby boy! There is nothing like it! I am so glad the two of you are doing well....you are both in my thoughts and prayers!

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Sunday, September 24th 2006

9:00 PM

Update

My little boy is asleep in my bed. Yes, I'm one of those co-sleepers..therefore I do not sleep. Neither does he. One of these days he'll make it into his crib, but for now I enjoy listening to him snore and his feet kicking me in the middle of the night. I like it when he lifts his head and looks around for me, then lays it down and scoots his little rear into the air and falls back to sleep.

He'll be nine months old next week. Time flies. I'm getting the hang of being momma, but everytime I think I've got it down, something new comes up. Tis life!

Jack and I are doing fine with the help of my family. His dad is paying some support. Not much, but it's something. At least we aren't in court battling it out. I just want to enjoy my boy and if his dad decides to disappear altogether, that's ok too. 

It's been a long road and I'm ready to say goodbye to the past and get on with it. The message board is going to continue for my friends and for the new women who are needing somewhere to go for support and vent. I will be able to visit and add my input from a different perspective eventually. Right now I'm in transition and I've been aloof. I hope that my friends there understand! I still care, but I need to focus on some other aspects of the process.

My life is filled with opportunity for growth now. I'm in a new phase and I'm excited about the future. I am still too sensitive for my own good, but it will help me on the path I'm on.

Anger still rears it's head and I've been told by a male friend that I visit with, that it's a good thing. Anger is good, because it's pushing me into the next level. Believe me, anger has been with me the whole time, but now I'm "just" angry.

I've met a good friend through this journal and we visit eachother now and then. Her daughter is just a coupla weeks older than Jackson. It's been nice to have her as a friend and we have a great time together. She's one of those annoyingly beautiful, thin women that can make Carmen Electra feel like a toad!

Anyhow, here is the latest photo of me and Jackson on a recent trip with my buddy and her daughter

 

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